“You’ve got the words to change a nation but you’re biting your tongue.You’ve spent a life time stuck in silence afraid you’ll say something wrong.If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song.” lyrics by Emeli Sande
I’ve been busy falling in love again and this time I’m not talking about my lovely Hubby! ( that goes without saying ;)) . I’m talking about music. I have Sung, danced and done theatre since I was a tot and the inevitability of falling in and out of love with Music is the same as the certainty of the ebb and flow of life. We are enchanted and disenchanted more than likely in equal amounts. Contrast is the very stuff of life and just like our relationships we cannot expect or entertain that we will be constantly enchanted or in love with our partners or husbands or children or friends. It will ebb and flow just like the tides.
There is only one constant in life and that is the unnamed, indescribable essence that flows through all of life, even those who have tried to name it ( religions 😉 ) have got into a lot of trouble. The only way I can recognise this pure force in my life is when something touches me or moves me and from that I create. It is a powerful immeasurable force at play in all of our lives and just like breathing in and out, it comes and it goes ……constantly.
As I mentioned sometimes I go through times when I fall out of love with music ( can be interchanged with anything in your life) and when I fall back in love it offers me such sweetness and clarity of my true nature, and I recognise this by the goosebumps that appear without effort when a song touches my soul. Uk Songstress Emeli Sande has been doing this for me with her music lately. It touches a place deep within me that wakes something up….a need, a desire to create and to share.
The song I shared with you is aptly named “Read all about it” and it speaks of this desire that burns in all of us to share our gifts and talents , “our music”, with the world. It’s about wanting to share your message with the world, which I can really relate to as I am sure you can too! and yet not always having the strength or the words or the knowledge to do this.
There are times in my life when I have felt very creative and expressive and times when I have felt totally suppressed and like I am not accessing this stuff at all. At the moment I am somewhere between the two, hanging off the precipice, ready to leap, full of faith and yet not knowing what lies beneath. It’s scary! and thrilling at the same time.
I know that you feel the same sometimes. I know that life gets in the way and we don’t always do or say or act on the things we want to and I also know that we all have a unique and brilliant voice just wanting to be heard. It shouts at us sometimes, screams “let me out there – I have something to say!!” and then the judgements…..”what if I look stupid?, what if people don’t want to hear what I have to say, What if I’m not good enough?”
The point of my post today is to show you that we ALL have this to some degree, we all have to deal with the dragons and we all must inevitably feel suppressed at times, how else could we rise from the ashes triumphant and living into our destiny. Even people as successful and amazing at what they do as Emeli Sande have to face this in life and push through the resistance they feel inside of their own personal prison of failure. Listen to her song “Clown” and it will tell you all you need to know about this experience. And yet here she is sharing her message with the world, letting us know we are not the only ones who feel this way sometimes.
The only thing stopping you is YOU, how you feel about the message you put out there and the fear that comes with sharing it initially can be overwhelming. If we all let that stop us, let that perfectionist control how we live into our future then nothing would ever be done. Perhaps all that matters is that moment to moment of letting go. I don’t know Emeli and I don’t know if she is any happier from selling millions of records than she was when she sat down to write “Clown” but I do know this….. It takes courage to share and it takes courage to hear those dragons and do it anyway and we all have a bit of that. Every message is worth sharing and every word is worth speaking if it has passion and love and courage behind it, and yes we may sing the odd bum note but who cares? surely it’s better than never sharing that message. As Wayner Dyer says often “Don’t die with your music still in you”.
Love to you all